I'm struggling

I'm struggling

Quinto Lam

4/11/20232 min read

Hi. It's Quinto Lam again. And I'm struggling. I'm fine, there's nothing wrong with me or anyone that I like. It's more about my book, let me explain.

So. My first book isn't doing so well. If you're reading this, you're probably one of only a few people who will ever read this since- well- my book isn't doing so well. I've realised that my main goal with this series isn't really to make it sell and make money. I just want to write a story which I can completely mould by myself. I could control my characters kinda like a puppeteer or something. Basically, I don't really care if this sells. That's basically what I've been thinking. I'm busy with my own badminton career so that's why I've been slacking on these things lol.

Even though I don't care if this sells, it kinda hurts me every time I look at the statistics and sees that most people who bought my book are just because of me. I can bet that 90% of books sold are probably from people who knew me before they knew my book. I want people to know me because of what I do, not to have them know what I do because they know me. So, I'm struggling a bit with that.

The second thing I'm struggling with is trying to balance time for this thing. I am pretty certain that most kids, especially my age, would take time to play video games and such. While I don't really do so because I have this. I know I'm definitely not the only one, and I'm not saying that I'm such an angel for not playing video games, but what I'm trying to say is that I have a limited amount of time each day to do stuff. I need to write my book, I need to play badminton and most of all I need to waste 8 hours of my time in school.

I'm not going to rant about the school system, and I'm also not going to say that you shouldn't go to school. With that said, I'm also not saying that you have to do well. Everything I do doesn't really need me to do well academically, well I mean I have to be decent at English to write a book but that's beside the point. The point is that if education was completely eliminated from my life, like these two weeks of Easter holiday for me, I would have so much time to do so much stuff.

The problems I'm facing now are that I don't know how to get people to buy my book and I don't have time to do things. It is my responsibility to get people to buy my book, I'm not asking for help, but if you have tips feel free to share them with me. My g-mail is quintolam@gmail.com and my Instagram is @quinto_lam so DM me or something. And if you've taken the time to read through this whole thing, thank you so much.